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Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)

Enjoy.

人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Wednesday, November 29, 2017 @ 7:18 PM
いらないものは捨ててもいい
Please abandon the things that you do not need! The things that are not in line with your priorities! 
I realise that I am suddenly so fearful of taking on responsibilities. Is this a side effect of having exerted myself too much in the past, although I didn't feel like I was exerting myself? If so, then it's really sad. 

I shy away from all sorts of thoughts of these responsibilities now. Have I messed up my priorities in the past? I can't think straight when my priorities are not in order. 

It boils down to my perfectionistic nature, I believe. Since when did I become so perfectionistic? Wanting everything I do to be perfect? Perfectly executed, perfectly designed, if not, perfectly explainable... Ugh. These thoughts of perfection are what suffocates me. There are times when I feel like I can't breathe from the weight of these thoughts buzzing around like a swarm of killer wasps in my brain. It's tiring, incarcerating. And I believe that if I don't control it, it will drive me mad some day. 

I must learn how to let it go - to understand that nobody is humanly capable of achieving perfection in everything they do, and chasing after these perfections mindlessly is what leads to the greatest failures of all. 

Let go, let your mind and soul breathe, relax. 

Trust that there is a higher being taking care of you, if you must. 
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Friday, November 24, 2017 @ 1:38 PM
Hey,
Why are you so able to forgive others but yet so demanding on yourself?

Why do you hold yourself to such a steep standard compared to what you hold others to?

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Sunday, November 5, 2017 @ 11:19 AM
Strangeness of the soul; giving up and letting go.
In life, there are things worth getting excited over, and things not worth your effort. The key is to decide which category each thing belongs to, and then you are set to go - to live happily, healthily, in a way that is at peace with your soul. 
What do you want
to be the rhythm your life moves to?

Somehow I feel happier when my life is in this state than when I was too
 caught up in making sure that everything went 'perfectly'.

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