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Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)

Enjoy.

人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Monday, August 31, 2015 @ 1:45 PM
(This should have been published last week? 20something august?)
Maybe we have different views on how this route should be taken. Maybe I feel that I need to become a better person, a 'perfect' person first, before I can return. But no, this is such a... Stupid way of thinking? Cause there is no such thing as perfect and I will never be a perfect person for you, and neither will you be a perfect person for me.

I will ask for a meeting soon, once my thoughts get clearer.
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@ 1:44 PM
Limits.
Uni is hard haha >< There are really a lot of things which we need to catch up with. All the tutorials, readings, assignments, quizzes and presentations for each module haha. And we have seven modules >< I guess it really boils down to how you allocate your time within the day? But the thing is that I cannot sacrifice too much sleep too or else I will not be productive in the day... Actually in uni there is really no such thing as not being productive and having nothing to do haha because you just need to psycho yourself into "the mood". It's not like JC any more when you can afford not to do things just because you don't feel like doing it. The opportunity cost of not doing anything is getting a lot higher haha. But for now I really need this break LOL to type a bit and relieve some of the thoughts in my head. And listen to music. Haha.

I'm still learning, man. There's still so much to learn haha. And boundaries to push. I am feeling challenged... So I guess this is something good? Because in the past I might feel that my limit is being reached but for now I just carry on and push on. Too see how much I can push myself :P And also because I don't really have much other choice if I want to make my time meaningful xD I cannot just give up and heck LOL because I also want to see how much I can accomplish. On a side note this keyboard is so nice to type with lol so bouncy! I need to stop ending my sentences with "haha" because they are getting too annoying and repetitive and meaningless. Okay after this song ("Dope" by BTS!) ends I shall get back to work! Which is essentially reading Chem notes. Seeyah!

P.S. "Limits" reminds me of math too lolol
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Tuesday, August 25, 2015 @ 10:27 PM
Musings
Certain things remind me too painfully of you. Like 方大同 songs. 三人遊. Even though you have never actually sung it in front of me? I don't know. Or maybe it reminds me of myself in that very brief period in which I was fascinated by this song, but never really got around to learning it. Something I meant to do but didn't do. Or maybe it's just the melody.

On a brighter note, I finally have wifi in my room! Can blog from my iPad hahahahaha and then watch YouTube and all that shit from the comfort of my bed ^^ I probably ought to go to bed now.

I think I'm just gonna feel pain when I hear some songs that remind me of promises and certainty.
But I will probably get over it. Lol. Because like I've said, currently I'm still unsure of my future direction. Idk sia, it feels like the only song I can really listen to and enjoy now is Sam Willows' Take Heart haha. Although you were kinda like the first person who introduced it to me. Still remember you talking about how it's a folk song lol wth scam me. Haha I guess in the future when I listen to this song it will remind me a lot about this period when I listened to it so many times. Even though the lyrics don't really make sense lol is it like typical Singaporean English lyrics haha.

Anyway. Yeah, I don't have the certainty to turn away completely but I don't have enough reason to stay where I was. So... We'll see how things turn out? Yeah.
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Saturday, August 22, 2015 @ 11:48 AM
Have you been crying?
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Wednesday, August 19, 2015 @ 10:10 PM
Second chances
How do you drown your sorrows?

You distract yourself by doing other things. Filling your life up with activities. Studying. Especially studying. You try so hard to be good at everything other than the one thing you fail at, as if you could make up for it by excelling at all these other things.

You try not to think.

You go to bed early and sleep your pain away.
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Thursday, August 6, 2015 @ 11:49 PM
Who would've known
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@ 3:40 PM
Many miraculous things have been happening in my life :O

:)
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Monday, August 3, 2015 @ 1:43 PM
._.
I am currently greatly annoyed by the construction going on upstairs UGH I can't even play the piano in peace. God, looks like I should go off soon. Sigh. Time to get out of the house ._. Dk if I should bring my laptop to NTU hall though maybe I should. If I want to register for my courses. Argh. Sigh okay then. I can't even think properly with the damn drilling sounds. ._. It's seriously putting me in a terrible mood lol. Okay I shall bring my laptop...
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