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huiting says hi

Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)

Enjoy.

人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Wednesday, January 28, 2015 @ 12:11 PM
Maybe
Listened to "Love Someone" by Jason Mraz again today and what struck me was how differently I feel listening to it now and listening to it in May a year ago.

A lot of things have changed in these past eight months, my friend. Or maybe it's just one thing, but it took many things to lead up to this one thing, you know?

But the change is so significant. Subtle, yet significant.

And while in the past I felt nothing much listening to "Long Drive", today I can relate to it so much.

Haha.

It's a good change, though. A beautiful one. Although the memories which the music brought up are so... Strong, and vivid. And I am struck by how differently I feel now, compared to the past.

And the images conjured up in my mind...

I like that I've changed :)

That's why I love music, yeah? It brings back moments which you would otherwise not remember, and it brings them back so vividly that you could be stunned by the details of these past memories.

And darling, I love you.
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Friday, January 23, 2015 @ 2:56 PM
Chill pillz
I really have to stop worrying unnecessarily over things I cannot control nor change. And also over things which are actually not that important.

Take a chill pill. Things will turn out fine. No matter how they turn out, you can still survive anyway. So, stop worrying so much.

Do what you must do, and don't worry about the other stuff in the process.

Still.

Maybe I need to scream it out

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Le Silent Scream
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Friday, January 16, 2015 @ 12:21 PM
Beautiful flowers.
What do I do... I'm kinda freaking out about the Berklee audition now. But freaking out doesn't help, does it? So okay, we have to do it one step at a time. I still have tonight. And anyway, there are some things that I don't have to give a fuck about, so I should just stop giving a fuck about them so that my life can be spent on giving fucks about more meaningful thing. Okay. Mark Manson article. Makes sense. Stop worrying, you worrywart. Or maybe I should say, stop giving a fuck to unimportant things, girl.

Okay. Relax. All iz well. Even the application to Lasalle tomorrow isn't something to worry about. You've got it all planned out already anyway right? So stop worrying! And stop caring so much about saving money or transport fees, life will work itself out. Okay. Relax. Time to go to Mustard Seed now and eat good food.

And be more humble, you dumbass.

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@ 10:45 AM
Shalalalala shalala in the morning is this the second time I've had this heading?
人生一天一天地过~
这几年内我究竟做了些什么?

Haha, funny how when we (or maybe just me) always want some free time so that we will have the freedom to choose exactly what we wanna do. But when we are occupied with the things we thought we want to do, but have no more free time left, we will still want more free time. Weird, ain't it, the human psyche. Always wanting what we don't have.

I guess we can never run away from that completely even if we have small epiphanies every now and then.

Doesn't make the epiphanies worthless though.

治标 vs 治本

I'll never be able to completely understand myself but life still goes on anyway lol so let's just work with what we have at the moment.
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