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Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)


人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Tuesday, July 16, 2013 @ 7:37 PM
But of course that love has evolved into something more mature, more thoughtful now. It used to be so impulsive (though stronger, as in you feel it tugging at you so much more). It's much more logical now. And we can see each other attempting so much to hold on.

But where there were once possibilities before... They were quenched, then. Now I feel nothing more than a friend to you. Maybe closer than siblings. But nowhere in the area beyond that.

Hm... Soul mates? I would like to believe Nicole's point of view about that, I would really like to.
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Sunday, July 14, 2013 @ 2:54 PM
Is it ever possible to love without requiring anything in return?

The ideal type of "love" would be this type of love, right... But how can you be sure that you are not continuing to love because your significant other is giving you the incentive to continue loving him or her? What makes you so sure that even if your significant other does not reciprocate it in any way, you would continue loving him or her? Who knows...

I highly doubt that we are selfless to that extent. We probably continue loving a person because in some way or another, we get something in return. It could be that person's happiness which allows us to feel happy too. It could be that the person reciprocates it and in turn loves us back. Either way, we do get something in return. The love does not just disappear into a black void; the person wouldn't be apathetic about it. If he were, then we would stop loving him, isn't it. Since it has no effect whatsoever on him at all o.O

Yeah, so I believe that we do require something in return to continue loving a person. Just that this something differs between different people. For some people this something is a huge thing - for example, some might only love because the other loves them back. For some, it would be simple - just seeing that person being happy because they love that person and are giving that person something would be enough for them to continue holding on to that love.

We always seem to praise the latter more, however. Saying that that is the purest form of love there is. You love "without expecting anything in return", in a way. But what I'm trying to point out here is that perhaps seeing that person happy is a "return" in itself already. We won't do anything which does not have an effect on the world at all, isn't it. If that's the case then why not just focus our energies on something else which can help the world tangibly instead.

But then again, it's not like this is a bad thing. It's just something I've observed and which I'm thinking about.

But yes, everything probably comes back down to balance. Newton's third law is a form of balance. For any force you exert, there will be an equal and opposite force acting in the opposite direction. Yep. So if you love, there must be something which returns to you which makes you continue loving. It's just that the magnitude of the strength of this thing differs for different people. So Newton's third law still holds in this case.

People are subjective. And complex. And never predictable.

We can only try to understand but we will never be able to fully understand a person.

That's the beauty of humanity and of life, isn't it? The ever-changing sphere of personality. And choices. Nothing is ever predictable.
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Wednesday, July 3, 2013 @ 9:52 PM
People change, but we survive.
Why hello. It seems like it has been such a long time since I've last been here. I know, I always start with this line after a period of rest between my blogging sprees. But oh well, old habits die hard ;)

Anyway, we are in the middle of our block tests now! I'm starting to get quite used to tests. I mean, it feels as if the Sec 4 EOYs didn't end that long ago, if you know what I mean. Haha. And now we're almost done with our first block tests in JC. The act of taking exams is starting to become a ritual to me... I'm even beginning to enjoy this feel o.O Of preparing for the tests and waiting for it to end... But of course, the end of these block tests do not mean that we can stop working though... Although we can indulge ourselves a little. Ah well.

It's alright, I'm starting to grab a hold on life, and balance my life out(:
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