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huiting says hi

Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)

Enjoy.

人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Monday, February 28, 2011 @ 9:39 PM

Quote of the day:

As they say, stop being a wuss and start following your heart, idiot.

Hahaha this is unbelievable this is actually the third post that I'm posting today! Lalala.

I will follow my heart. I will be brave and take the first step forward. :D You too, okay? (:

Yes, this is for everyone to see.

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@ 6:44 PM
free to choose
Ah heck, let's just commit ourselves to blogging for now. This little bit of time won't hurt that much anyway. Hm. I have approximately 3 hours and 15 minutes left as of now. Not counting after I've finished this post, if you know what I mean.

Argh, I'm tired from thinking about Math all day. Mats lol. Yeah, my brain is exhausted and is getting more and more exhausted as I plough through all the Math pretest questions. Argh. I am very sure that we have three tests tomorrow. Physics velocity quiz, Chemistry chemical formulae quiz, and Math Chapter Test 2. Lalala. I wonder how I'll do. Well, I've studied quite a lot. In fact, this is amazingly out of the ordinary because I never study for Math quizzes or block tests. I don't plough excruciatingly through all the various questions and end up thinking like hell. Sigh. I seem so boastful. But oh well. Sorry, I just feel like saying all that out now. Must be the tired mood. Argh.

Yay, OBS is coming. I am feeling happy. I wanted to type 'Are you happy? I am!' but ah fk I am just not in the mood for question marks and exclamation marks now. Full stops can do the job pretty well. Yes, OBS. I am feeling pretty excited about it. Hahaha and one of the reasons is the bag that we bought yesterday. Yes, the kind of haversack designed especially for hiking/camping. And I'm going to bring it to OBS. So, of course, I am happy and excited. This is the first time that I will be bringing haversacks to a camp. In the past I've always brought duffel bags. Always. To Genting, to Sec 1 Lifeskills Camp, to Sec 2 Lifeskills Camp, to Malacca. Everything goes nicely into the blue/orange duffel bag. Ah but now it's different because I will be bringing a haversack. Of course, if you think about it, a haversack is extremely useful and a thousand times more efficient than a duffel bad because you can actually carry the haversack on your bag. Through the course. Instead of lugging the irritating duffel bag around using that small handle. Argh.

Another funny thing is that I will be bring a water bag to OBS instead of the usual 1.5 litre water bottle or the disposable soft drink water bottle. A water bag. From SAF. HAHAHAHAHHAAH THAT IS DAMN FUNNY A WATER BAG OMG. Lol. Yes. Can you believe me? I'm bringing a water bag to OBS. Omg. The kind where the water is stored in a bag with a tube hanging out from the bottom and you drink from the tube. HAHAHAHA A WATER BAG. The instructors must be like: Walao why this girl so big on SAF one. LOL. I still can't get over it xD Hahahaha. Ah well. Just do it man. Hardcore. Water bag. Lalala.

Speaking of OBS, I am reminded of the Nanjing trip. Ah. So tempting. So many reasons as to why I should go. But should I? Right now I have three options to choose from. 山东,宁波 or 南京?Who told them not to offer 苏州 as a choice for the BSP people. Too bad. For some reason, both 山东 and 宁波 repel me just that little bit. I have no idea why. Perhaps their names just don't fit. Argh. But they'll be a little comfortable. More comfortable than 南京, at least. But 南京 will be an amazing experience. Because of the obvious, and another more irritatingly stupid reason. LOL. Hahaha 抱歉,天机不可泄漏. Sigh. I think I will go to 南京. I just know it, you know? It's one of those feelings that you get. You just know that you will be doing that. It's not like a part of your thorough choosing process or anything. You just know it. Ah well.

I have OBS and the entire March holidays to think about it(: Till then, expect my decision xD Well I think it's pretty much set in stone already, but of course, there's still room for negotiation. I'm sure my brother (2nd) will encourage me to go for the 南京 trip though. Hm. We shall see(:

I'm hungry, haha. And the mood of this blog post has been consistently lifting. From sian to un-sian. All because of OBS and the water bag. HAHAHA. Okay bye(:

Free to choose

I think the act of opening your arms as wide as they can go is significant somehow. Child-like, yet natural..

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@ 6:00 PM
._.

Hello(: Miraculously, I went running just now O: Okay well, to be honest, I didn't really run. I wanted to, but Jacey was whining like hell. So I decided to take him downstairs for a walk, thinking that it was not so bad getting him to run with me. I realised that my stamina has deproved by damn bloody f***ing much. Sian. I will go running at least once every week now. I swear. Damn it.

Sian I do not want to blog now because I have a f***ing huge load of shit to do so yeah. Bye.

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Friday, February 25, 2011 @ 8:23 PM
How do you feel?

Hello :D I'm here with a purpose in mind! That is, to answer the question: "What exactly are we, the right-brained people, doing in SMTP?"

This is a very important question that I have to address. Actually, I have had the answer in my mind all along, just that I lack the platform to address it :x It's the reason why I care about my studies and my results.

Hello Sabrina :D This is what I feel! And it's kinda dedicated to you okay, so be honoured HAHA.

We study so hard and put ourselves into the talent programme because it is what is required of us. Okay, perhaps I should use the first person pronoun instead. But ah, whatever, just don't think that I'm referring to anyone or any group in particular. This is just my sincere opinion(: We study so hard, because the society requires us to do so. It requires us to state all our "strengths", that is, what talent programme we studied in, what prizes or scholarships we have won, what grades we got in school. Only with these crap, can we venture into the real world happily, for with these crap, we would be able to have a wider range of choices regarding what we want to do. We can perhaps, choose what we would really like to do instead of being restricted to only a subordinate's job. We have more freedom, in that sense.

Because the modern world today is cruel. 99% of the world cares about what you score and how you did in your academics. Without that academic capability, people will think that you would not even be able to accomplish anything beyond the simplest - I say simple, not normal, because in today's eyes "normal" things have already become simple. Stagnant. Dead. - things. Ay, the world is prejudiced indeed... But they do have proof for this. Only one in a million people would have that extraordinary capability to move beyond their boundaries and not be compressed down by their academic results. Bill Gates would be an excellent example. Actually, he's not that good an example, because after all, he did get into Harvard before failing out of his course because he found better things to do in life. So he's not much of an example, actually. Hm. I can't really think of anyone else for now.

Let's just make do with something general, then. You could have a great flair for the Arts, but you just can't stand language and literature, or Math, for that matter. You could have a great imagination, but you can't stand being restricted to the various rules in Math and comprehension. Yes, by the way, I do find comprehension restrictive. Maybe it's because I'm really lousy at it, or perhaps I'm just abnormal. I mean, don't you find it kinda contradictory? On one hand, the teachers want us to widen our perspectives, while on the other hand, they restrict us to only the answers that they have for comprehension passages. I supposed I'm going a little off centre now, because perhaps it is more important for us to understand what we are supposed to understand, and not misinterpret whatever common signs? Oh well. This would mean that I'm really poor at understanding others then. Sigh.

Never mind, back to what I was saying before. Yes, you could have an enormous talent for something that is not academic-orientated. This talent of yours could very well bring you to greater heights, sometimes even greater than those with good academic results. I suppose that you would stand out more, because nowadays everybody is getting good results; everybody has the same list of A1s or As.

That's why, it has already become a necessity for us to get As, because that is what is expected of us! Without those As, we would be worse than the normal and the majority. And it would, of course, be harder to commit to something that you really like and would improve in doing after a period of time. Experience is crucial... If you don't even have the basic blocks to take the first step, you won't even be able to achieve or get enough experience which may help you in your search for another similar job. So it all boils down to those academic results. And those talent programmes. And scholarships and awards.

Only with these, can I be able to really be confident that I would be able to pursue my dream.

But I still must have the courage to do it. To try it out. For it is not ordinary, definitely. I have to have faith and determination. I have to preservere on.

I can do it.

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Thursday, February 24, 2011 @ 8:15 PM
Yearning.

Hello this is something from Han Yi xD

Left brain: I am the left brain. I am a scientist. A mathematician. I love the familiar. I categorize. I am accurate. Linear. Analytical. Strategic. I am practical. Always in control. A master of words and language. Realistic. I calculate equations and play with numbers. I am order. I am logic. I know exactly who I am.

Right brain: I am the right brain. I am creativity. A free spirit. I am passion. Yearning. Sensuality. I am the sound of roaring laughter. I am taste. The feeling of sand beneath bare feet. I am movement. Vivid colors. I am the urge to paint on an empty canvas. I am boundless imagination. Art. Poetry. I sense. I feel. I am everything I wanted to be.


HELLO EVERYONE ISN'T IT OBVIOUS WHO I AM. I AM NOT THE LEFT BRAIN I AM THE RIGHT BRAIN WHO JUST HAPPENS TO BE ON QUITE-GOOD CONDITIONS WITH THE LEFT BRAIN.

Omg man, some of the left brain stuff I see and cringe away. The moment I saw the picture, I was immediately attracted to the right side. I thought it was a pebble of flowing colours that symbolised something. Then I read the words and realised it was the left and right brain -_- Lol. The left brain repels me. Sigh. The right one immediately attracts me O:

HI ALL DO YOU THINK I'M A RIGHT BRAIN OR A LEFT BRAIN?!

Hm to be honest I quite like poetry at times. When it is something that I choose to read, that I understand, that I can empathise with. Ah, that I like. But when I'm forced to do it... Ah well, you know(:

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@ 7:38 PM
Just the way you are (:

Hello everyone!

This is quite a sad piece of news but I've been dropping hair D: A lot D: Sigh. It's like whenever I comb through my hair with my fingers there will definitely be a strand of hair clinging to it afterwards D: Oh no. This is bad): Either I tie my hair too tightly, or I am stressed D: Sigh. I wish it's the former because at least I'd be able to control that. More than the latter, anyway. But the thing is, I don't really feel stressed O_O Oh well. Maybe I'm living in self-denial. Hahahahaha.

Ah sigh, Maths Quiz today. I think I probably failed it. Actually, I'm quite hopeful that I didn't fail it as badly as I did for the first quiz. But this is because of luck only, I believe :x I suddenly remembered how to solve some questions just before Mdm Lee said we had to stop. I believe she's quite alarmed at how much every one of us have deproved, in that sense. (Yes I know that word doesn't exist but as long as you get what I mean I'm fine with it(:) I should stop being so lazy and arrogant that I know everything :/ I should stop being arrogant that I would know how to solve every one of the questions in the quiz as soon as I see them. I should start to really revise before quizzes and take time to understand every thing that I didn't get before. I should revise the concepts immediately after they are taught to ensure that I really know them. Yes, I should. I don't want to disappoint her D: And I don't want to disappoint myself too. Sigh. Because Math has always been my best subject. Ever since I was young. Oh well.

Never mind, no pressure(: I need yoga and dance and singing ♥ I love dancing. I want to learn how to dance. I love conducting. I shall tell you all a secret now :D Shh okay. HAHA. Yes, one of my life wishes is to be able to conduct an ensemble or an orchestra. A professional one that plays well with all the emotions and proper rhythm. In front of an audience that loves music and that appreciates every single note that is being played. I want to stand in the middle, in front of the orchestra, and conduct as the music swirls around the hall. I want to be in the middle of that amazing music, in the no-man's land between the orchestra and the audience. I want to intoxicate myself with all the feelings that are burst forth from the musicians. I want to rejoice when they do. I want to smile when they do. I want to breathe it all in, embrace it. I want my heart and hands to sing.

This is amazing. I can actually imagine that feeling already now. It is beyond words(:

This is why I can't be the vice president, or the president, because this feeling matters so much more than that golden badge. It is amazing.



Cause you're amazing(: ;

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Tuesday, February 22, 2011 @ 8:05 PM
Fly
Hello everyone(: I am going to dedicate this post to someone whom I haven't spoken to in a very long period of time. Wow, if you really want to count, I suppose it's around 8 months. WTF, EIGHT MONTHS, ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Lol. Time passes so quickly...

Hm. I initiated a conversation with him around 2 weeks ago? I don't know why, it was just an impulse O: Hahaha. A simple 'hello'. And yeah, he replied lah. And talked to me about stuff...

Just like how we used to do such a damn long time ago O: you introduced me to a song... Just the Way You Are. Sung by a girl. I forgot her name. Well, it was nice. And lmao, you asked me for the solution to some Math questions. HAHAHA. As usual... But amazingly, I was able to solve it! It was a question involving surds..

But that was the only one time I've talked to you since the end of June last year. And we haven't talked since. And it's back to me stoning and going msn again just for the sake of doing so. Hahaha I sound so anti-social. But it's not my fault kay :D It's become a habit already.. Nowadays I'm also too lazy to sign into msn. It's not like I talk to anyone there also. So here I am, blogging/playing pet society LOL. Pet society is getting boring again. Oh well. It's bound to happen sooner or later(:

You know, it feels really awesome to know that once, I was your very best friend. Someone whom you could talk to regarding everything. And have lame random jokes and hahaha intelligent arguments with. And just basically spend time with without feeling awkward or anything. Lalala.

But too bad, that time has passed :x It still feels awesome though. Because I still have the proof that you regarded me as a very important friend >D Haha lol. Hm. To think about it, it was actually a very good experience. Just that that time I was still kinda annoying. Yes, I acted emo, I exaggerated emotions. I thought I was being 'mature' and 'in love' :x Hahaha. Well I have a quite-different perspective on it now then(: It feels good to have a friend who feels that you are important, too. Better than just some one-sided thing. Oh damn. That sucks.

You know, I get paranoid at times that my friends dislike me for one reason or another. For example, he/she would do something, then I'd overinterpret it. Okay, I hope I overinterpreted it and that it's actually not true. Hahaha okay I'm not making sense xD Never mind.

Yes, so you were that awesome friend of mine(: Sadly it's a little awkward now. But it doesn't really matter much, cause it wasn't before. It was the best before. And both you and I knew it. And that's enough for me. (:


Just be happy.

Fly.

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Monday, February 21, 2011 @ 8:56 PM
木兰情 - 孙燕姿
我看得见云在天上混乱的飞
我听得见滚滚沙场里一滴泪
这是谁的沙漠 我忘了我是谁
又是谁 让这天灰。。。
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@ 7:44 PM
Ahahaha but life's just like that.
Hi! I want your blog url again. I'll just laugh and laugh and laugh. Sigh it's been such a long time since I've laughed out loud in front of the computer because of something :/ And lol, you know, my msn is like useless :x Seriously. I realised that I don't really even use it at all. Like, really. I don't talk to anyone, and I don't initiate a conversation o_o I just wait for people to talk to me, I guess? And I also just use it to somehow stalk people's PMs. LOL. Hahahaha I'm weird :D And also, people rarely talk to me. In fact, it's like 1 in 10000 chances that someone would initiate a conversation with me. And it'll 90% be about something formal. Like, something to do with work. Lol. So my msn is actually just there for show. HAHA. Oh well. It's a habit, I guess :x

Hahahaha I really wanna read his blog again but too bad it's been like privated since forever. I wonder who is invited to the blog. OH WELL. I wonder if he even still blogs at all. Hm...

I'm sure I'll have a different take on things now. In fact, it'll be really very different. Cause I've changed. Yeah, as much as people don't really wanna admit (wtheck am I talking about) I have changed! Lalalala. Okay, maybe the outer me didn't change. But the inner me changed really by quite a lot (: Well it's quite a relief that I didn't really change that much hahaha.

I'm still me! And I love being me. LOL. I'm like talking to myself.

Jacey is awesome.

Yes, in case you don't know who he is, he is my dog o_o.

HAHAHA JACEY!x3

lalalalala I shall stop crapping LOL kay bye xD 三国 is awesome. LOL. 马超 is gonna come out soon manzxcxzcxz. He is awesome. And 诸葛亮 is awesome. I love 诸葛亮. Lalalala Life Is Awesome(: Hee bye(: Be Happy! And have sweet dreams. I believe that we can all control our dreams xD so be happy(: Cause happy is awesome. Lalalala okay be happy! xD Why am I repeating all these. HAHAHAHA. Okay be happy xD LMAO I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING BYE. I always type 'okay bye' then backspace it then write 'okay be happy'. LOL. Hahahaha okay lah byebyebye xDD (:


YOU ARE AWESOME LIKE THIS SMILE.

And I still remember. (:

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Sunday, February 20, 2011 @ 8:38 PM
No surprise.
What if someday, someone comes up to you and says, "It wasn't for you. It was for me."?

I shan't say much, but I had quite a lot of things to do today.

There is always that belief, that you are special.

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Saturday, February 19, 2011 @ 6:57 PM
differentiation.
I have developed an intense passion for the Chinese language and culture. And history. This is no doubt a product of the various movies and shows that I've watched recently. One being, of course, The Three Kingdoms, and the other being 刮痧. It is the movie that our teachers played for us during our BSP lesson last Friday. Yesterday, actually. It was then that I realised how much our culture actually matters to us. Almost all of the girls present in the lecture theatre at that time were extremely indignant after watching half of the movie. Indignant and furious at the fact that a Chinese man's child, whom he loves with all his life as with all fathers do, would be taken away from him because of supposed child abuse when he had done nothing to his child at all. His father - the child's grandfather - had applied Chinese traditional medicinal practises on the child because the child had a stomach ache. The areas where he had helped the child 刮痧 to improve blood circulation were still a little reddish because of the friction - but otherwise no harm was done to the child. The ridiculous thing was that this act of love was actually misunderstood by people of another culture to be something atrocious and unforgivable! The Chinese family was a minority race in the country at that time; they had migrated there for the man to pursue his career.

The people who were supposedly "protecting" the child by representing the child in court keep flinging out rubbish evidence that were not valid at all, in the sense that those evidence did not represent the whole story! Especially the part where they dragged in the Monkey God, 孙悟空. This is extremely irritating :/

But then again, I am proud of our Nanyang girls who have really shown that they are still deeply rooted and loyal to this culture :D As they naturally should be, but you know it is sometimes too easy to be carried away by the Western culture and be over influenced by it. Lalala.

I shall end this dramatic post by going off to comment at threeohonepeeps.wordpress.com now(: Goodbye and have a nice day. (:

There is no right or wrong.

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Friday, February 18, 2011 @ 8:45 PM
The littlest things that matter,

Live life and enjoy it;

Hello everyone. (:

I was very happy in the morning today because I woke up happy! LOL. Yes, that's what the radio dj of I forgot what station said. She said that if one wakes up in the morning with a positive mood then that person will most likely continue being positive/happy for the rest of the day(: Hahahaha. It's quite true, I guess? Unless some unforseen weird out-of-the-ordinary event happens halfway throughout the day and changes your mood completely. For example, your teachers all give you homework for the weekend. That's like, 5/6 subjects of homework for the weekend. Not counting the previous homework that you haven't done yet (a.k.a. Humanities essay question arghhhhhhhhhh) because you simply did not have enough time to do them. Oh well. Life's like that :D

Anyway, yes! As you can all tell, I am reasonably happy today I guess(: Since there are, well,smiley faces in this text hahaha. And the tone of my writing is quite casual and positive too. Hm. I realised that when I'm in a serious mood or a bad mood I would type in short heavy senteces. All with full stops that symbolise a huge and final end to that particular sentence :/ Oh well. Argh my mum and my brother are watching the Three Kingdoms now and they are going to reach the part where we stopped soon and I would have to go soon and I would not be able to complete any more work omg. But I'll have to finish crafting the excuse letter for tomorrow by tonight! D: And get my mum to copy it out in her own hand and then sign it. Hahaha, yes, this is how the way things work because my mum is usually too lazy to think about how to phrase what we are supposed to say -_- Oh well.

Yay my words are flowing so fluently. And the vocabulary used here is quite varied! As compared to my other posts, of course. I think this is a result of my sudden love for the English language? Actually, I have a sudden love for the Chinese language too. Hahah lol. Hm I wonder why. Perhaps it's because of the bilingual debate that took place during the morning assembly today. You know, personally, I feel that bilingual debates are awesome. They are amazing and captivating. Hahahaha. And they raise your bilingual ability by quite a high level! Sadly, nowadays in the rest of the world there aren't many bilingual debates going on. In fact, I think our school is the first one to propose the idea? Well, there aren't any official bilingual debating competitions (that I know of) at least.

I have decided that from now on when I have free time I will spend it on watching debates (be it English or Chinese) on youtube(: It will really widen my perspective and raise my awareness of the world and language ability! Oh and also, I feel that today's morning's debate is not as exciting and intellectual as the one that we witnessed during the East-West Minifest during the Sec 1 December holidays? Or is it Sec 2 June holidays O: I forgot, haha. Yah, I suppose it's because the debaters didn't have ample time to prepare for the debate this morning, and also because I guess this debate isn't as interesting and important as the East-West Minifest's :x

Hm, I still haven't explained my dream yet right? :D I shall tell you about it now then. Basically, what made it real awesome was the fact that magic was involved in it. HAHA. Stop laughing, magical dreams are the core of my existence okay. I'm so extremely glad and relieved that the dream world is available for us to explore and to create all by ourselves. Sure, we create dreams subconsciously, but the ideas in our subconscious' mind would have to originate from somewhere, and that would be our conscious mind(: And hence to some extent we would be able to control our dreams. I was with Ting Ting and some other people (I really forgot who), stranded in some desert somewhere LOL. Apparently there's some sort of war going on (hm I think I'm overly influenced by the Three Kingdoms. But hahahaha this is what makes dreams exciting(:), and we are hostages or something? I think that someone comes to save us or something. Anyway, my dream self possessed the ability to call upon the five elements - air, water, earth, fire, spirit. (yes, this is exactly the same as Zoey in House of Night novels HAHA) And I can summon each of the elements by saying "Earth, come to me." or "Spirit, come to me." Then I could command the elements to do whatever I wanted of them. In the dream, I only summoned Earth and Spirit, but I knew I had the ability to summon the rest, just that I didn't really think of it. Lol. The earliest thing I can remember that happened in the dream was that somehow or other, Ting Ting got hurt or something. I summoned spirit to heal her spirit and to lessen her injury LOL. And to bring her into a calmer state of mind somewhat. In the dream, I knew that her gift was the element earth. She could control earth. So after I healed her with spirit, I conjured up earth and told it to bring the smell of wildflowers into the room. Okay, not literally into the room, but it appeared on my hand. The group of friends with us all could smell it(:

The thing is, I don't care whether it sounds ludicrous or not. This kind of dreams are extremely hard to come by. Dreams in which you possess magical abilities and are able to protect yourself and others using those extra talents. This is - scientifically - not possible in the real world, so it is enough that I can actually enjoy it in my dreams. That I believed, at that point of time, that I had magic powers. That I had those magic powers in the dream. That I was conscious and I knew that I could use them. That is the power of dreams(:

Weird fact #5: Her favourite dreams are those in which she possesses magical abilities or enhanced abilities that humans - supposedly - cannot and do not possess.

Lalala. (:

Like the flowers that reached the sky.

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011 @ 8:59 PM
Nothing.
Hello everyone. I am feeling very screwed today. Yah, damn screwed.

Today was a very long day. I don't have the mood to do anything at all. Cca sucked. Okay, it didn't suck, but I didn't really like it. Okay, not that I didn't really like it. But, you know.

Syf. What is it to me? Why don't I feel the motivation to even work hard for it? Jia Yun says that Lin Lao Shi told them that our current standard is a COP standard. Yes, certificate of participation. But why don't I feel that way, why don't I think that our playing sucks?

I keep wanting to be a part of this. My brain knows that to motivate the Sec 2s, we the seniors would have to set a good example. I know it, yet I am completely numb to it. I don't care. I don't even give a damn. And this is what is scaring me the most. If I don't even give a damn, then why the hell am I even in the ensemble? It doesn't matter anyway. This gold with honours or gold or certificate of participation. I don't give a damn. It's not like it will affect my future or whatever. God damn it.

My brain feels completely numb. I don't think about anything at all. Even if I do, they are just emotionless statements. God, wtf is happening to me. Bloody hell.

Sigh. I really do not have the mood to do any home work or whatever shit. I cannot learn Math in this state. I'll just keep rereading the notes and words and numbers and they won't mean anything to me. It's like my living brain is covered by a layer of cold, dead brain and skin cells. Damn it.

I have to rest. I have to relax.

Okay, bye.



I want to read The Weight of Nothing by Steven Gillis.

Argh, the word 'nothing' looks weird to me now.

This is irritating.

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Wednesday, February 9, 2011 @ 7:34 PM
BABY YOU'RE A FIREWORK,
Hello! I did two sets of bridge just now :D One minute each, rested for 30 seconds in between. Yes, my brother would have insisted that 30 seconds was too much; 20 seconds is the most that you can rest between sets like this. I think this applies for situps also O: Maybe 3 sets of thirty crunches each? But then again, 20 seconds is really too little...

I have decided that from today (yesterday, actually), I shall start doing P.T. at home! Since I probably won't have the time (:x) and the motivation (sigh) to go running hahaha.

Most of it will be muscle training :D I.e. sit-ups, bridge, push-ups (I know manzcxz), and uh dumbbell lifting? Yes, cause I have two 4kg (omg really? I think. I'm not that sure, cause very long never see liao) dumbbells at home. My brother's (2nd). Yup.

Then of course, I'd train my flexibility as well! I want to be able to do a front split, really D: This is quite simple, cause I can do it when I'm watching tv(: I must train my left leg too! My right leg can 放心 liao xD Haha. But then, after I've trained my left leg (or maybe when I am training my left leg) I shall start oversplitting for my right leg. Lalalala. Yes.

Okay, that's all I guess :D Haha. I have a lot of things to do today! But strangely, I am optimistic about it. I know that I will be able to finish it somehow. (:

Oh, and for some reason, I suddenly like the font courier a lot. It's quite weird. Hm. Oh well. Life's like that xD Hahaha lol.

Yay to Jia Chun, who's currently enjoying herself like crazy hell at Taylor Swift's concert, Singapore Indoor Stadium now! She must be screaming her head off(: Hahahaha, yay for her xD


Lucky I'm in love with my best friend;

Lucky to have been where I have been,

Lucky to be coming home again ~

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Monday, February 7, 2011 @ 4:05 PM
The simple pleasures in life.
Hi. I am going to stuff myself with chocolate chip cookies and gummies because I am feeling depressed. Okay, not say depressed, but in a very serene mood actually. Serious. No jokes.

I suppose I'm like that because this morning I realised that my life was quite screwed. Quite out of balance. I have to get back on track :/

The cookies are really very nice. Crisp. Crunchy. Imagine if there was milk at home. It would have been awesome.

To those who gave me presents, thank you(: I really appreciate it ♥. Especially Jam Foo! (: Thank you! ♥ :D

Haha I'm not in the mood to post already, so byebye(:

Reach the sky.

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Thursday, February 3, 2011 @ 10:07 PM
I remember.

You will remain forever close to my heart.

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@ 9:16 PM
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Omg, tomorrow it's still new year! I feel so happy(:

Haha hello. Happy new year all :D I've gotten $250 from all the ang baos today O: but my mum took $72 away :/ It's customary. Oh well. This year a lot of people gave $10 and above ._. You see all the angbaos inside got all the 10 dollar notes.

Ah, watching 赤壁-决战天下 now! Aka 赤壁 2 :D It is awesome. Zhao Yun is chao shuai. I love Zhou Yu. And Zhuge Liang rocks. LOL. Guan Yu is damn funny. Hahaha. I love 三国 :D All the 历史英雄 never fail to amaze me...

Ah 三国 LOL. Dynasty Warriors LOLOL. Okay. But yes, I really love this kind of films(: Those Chinese films that are set in historic Chinese times. Like 花木兰, 14 Blades, whatever. They all rock!x3 Bloody hell cannot type the "less than 3" heart again -_-

So touching D: It's beyond words omg I don't know why I love this particular type of films.

Your heart will always be free.

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Tuesday, February 1, 2011 @ 10:44 PM
你是我傻瓜。

My dad is making cakes again :D This time the first batch kinda failed though. The centre didn't 'synthesise' properly :x So it's soft and mushy and all that. Haha. But I think the sides are edible! Anyway it's still edible even if it's soft, so that's not really the point :x

Chinese New Year celebrations tomorrow! And I'll be the one wearing the qipao again. Lol. Haha Imma make this a tradition xD I shall wear qipaos every year :x

Tomorrow we'll go see our P6 teacher... Mrs Ow. We as in the nanyang people + rv people + hwachong + acs + ri LOL. Hm maybe + nus also. It will be quite weird O: Cause sadly, huiyuan will not be able to go D: And so I won't have someone whom I'm really very very okay with talking to. Sigh. And the guys would be like chao tall -_- wtf. Sian lorh. LOL. Well I guess I should get used to it already. But the thing is I'm used to them being short O: Ahahahhaha :x

Okay change topic. Lol. Was watching 下一站,幸福! It's quite nice :D Some day (in the damn freaking siao far future) I shall watch the whole thing :x Sian the next episode is next monday :/ Means I can't watch liao. Oh well. Life's like that! Omg Chinese New Year tomorrow tomorrow! x3 bloody hell so irritating cannot type 'less than 3' here -_- %#@%#@! lol.

But I'll keep my distance. You are a friend. My other friends and my studies are of a higher priority. What you say doesn't really concern me. I'd just forget them. Yes. Okay. Cause I know, I'm not ready for this yet.

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