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Welllllll this is the public blog, so the things written here should be more-or-less stomach-able. ;) So I guess this is where I say the mandatory line:

This blog documents the thoughts and growth process of:
A free soul roaming the world in search of some meaning to life.

Pretty sure that's not the exact way I phrased it when I had my old blog skin but WTV HAHA.

Oooooh wait I think I wrote it as "lonely soul" instead of "free soul". But hey guys I've grown out of that emoshitz phase already alright ;)


人生就是要盡情地瘋 / I am a free soul.

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Friday, November 16, 2018 @ 4:40 AM
Hello blog!! Its been a while! More than a whole month since I last talked to you haha. I've been talking to Mia a bit more, so I hope you'll forgive me for that xD

Here I am, sitting in the Starbucks in Tresidder Union, staring up at the ceiling with my cup of grande coconut milk latte beside me. What blasphemy it is that their soy milk contains sugar. No wonder all my drinks taste so sweet when there I use soy milk here. Dear God. I wonder if the soy latte in Singapore is sweet too. Somehow I don't remember it being so sweet? Anyway, the coconut milk is sweet too, which irks me very very much. I also don't like that coconut taste. Ugh.

Haha, being so chill with my lab life. It's fine, everything is fine. Gotta concentrate on my real goal. Anyway, time to learn some music theory. Ciao!
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Wednesday, October 10, 2018 @ 4:31 AM
I am tired. Is "tired" not enough a word for you? I am truly tired. All I want is to kick off my shoes, sink into my bed, look up at the ceiling and stone. Do nothing.  It is really important to do nothing, yeah. I agree. I will do nothing for the rest of today after the lab meeting, then, because I simply cannot bear the thought of doing more things.

How long does it take for me to run out of steam? Two weeks, righttttt. I probably can't keep it up for long. But we'll see how it goes.

I am a person of ups and downs, after all. My life is a wave. Don't expect me to stay in one place and stay constant. Maybe my overall displacement will be zero, yes, but the distance travelled will always be more than that of a straight line.

Not sure if I am making any sense, but I don't really care at the moment.

See you around.

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Thursday, September 27, 2018 @ 6:36 AM
Hello dear bloggo,

I'm feeling so tired at the moment, I don't really know why ahaha. Perhaps "stoned" is a better word. If I could, I don't really wanna do anything else today, just wanna go back and lay on my bed and sleep. But well, since I still have those acapella auditions tonight, I guess I can't do that HAHA. At least the auditions will end early though.

I think I'll put a hold on my academic stuff for today. My brain is simply not working well enough to register all that info from a paper, and so I should just chill and give it some time to relax. Working at high speeds and intensities everyday is not something that good for you, after all xD So yes, like what my baobao said - Breathe! Remember to breathe hehe.

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Friday, September 21, 2018 @ 12:09 PM
Calories DDD:
Heyyo blogger, it's so hard for me to control the amount of things I eat nowadays LOLL. Also because I'm quite concerned about wasting food (due to the price of food, of course) and so I finish every bit of every meal I get if I'm not bringing it back x-x And then I also try to finish everything when I cook because it's quite a waste if I don't do so. The fats in front of my tummy is definitely starting to grow! I ate so much snacks in the afternoon (like two servings of cheetos and that leftover half of the dark chocolate caramel cookie thingy that Solange brought back from Chile!) just now hahaha and had a full lunch and bfast too (there were bagels and cupcakes at the Bollyky lab meeting in the morning just now and I couldn't resist the free bagel + cream cheese combo x-x) and so I really shouldn't eat anything for dinner now. But my tummy is like craving for some food LOL my God I don't know if I am hungry or just superbly greedy. I think it's the latter. When I sit down it seems like my stomach gets the hunger pangs a lot more than when I stand up. Which is really weird.

To be honest, I know my body doesn't need the food that I crave HAHA. It's just greedy, and I definitely won't die or anything if I continue to stay "hungry" for the rest of the night. It's just that yeah, it is easy for me to give in to these "hunger" pangs HAHA. Man. Okay I shall resist for tonight. Resist resist resist. And then eat tomorrow. Remember that eating is not everything HAHA I shouldn't stuff so many calories into myself.

Hui Ting

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Saturday, September 15, 2018 @ 1:14 AM
Just had an excellent breakfast of a pancake, scrambled eggs and a pork sausage from the hospital cafeteria. It was $3.50 in total :) But it was really good, and the butter and maple syrup was free -heart shape eyes emoticon- Definitely something I'll go back for again! Good breakfast! :) And I'm definitely very willing to pay $3.50 for it, even in Singapore terms hahaha this is like having a McDonald breakfast xD Except that you get to choose what you want on your plate! Woohoo!

Here's to a good day and a good weekend ahead :)

Hui Ting

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Wednesday, September 12, 2018 @ 1:02 PM
Hello blog,

I am feeling loads happier now! Today went by in a flash, probably because there were things to do. And I enjoyed cooking my pork bolognese fusilli just now as well. Tomorrow's lunch is settled, so is dinner/lunch for the day after tomorrow :) I'm looking forward to eating that fusilli!

Hehe, not sure if I've mentioned it here yet, but it seems as though after I came back from France last year (or the beginning of this year, actually), my cooking skills have miraculously improved by leaps and bounds. It's as if being in France helped me to become a gourmet chef myself HAHA. French food is awesome. Perhaps it was that final meal I cooked for our host family that boosted my confidence by leaps and bounds heh. But now I'm really very comfortable with cooking. Perhaps I should create an album to save all the photos of the food I've cooked here; that would be interesting :)

I think I'm still eating too much, though. Haha. Well, I can only slowly cut down my food intake. Doesn't help that I have so many snacks in my room too xD But it's alright, I still have 1.33 months to finish them. I think I'll be able to accomplish that, at least :P Shall try to buy less snacks now HAHA. Cheetos puffs are really good though D: I like how they are salty enough as a snack, but still not too salty, and not too hard and dry too - I won't cut my throat so terrible when I eat them, unlike potato chips ahahaha. Cheetos puffs is probably one thing I'll miss quite a lot when I go back to Singapore :P Of course, Mexican food as well! Pretty sure Singapore will have Mexican restaurants though, just gotta go find them xD

Well, I can definitely feel the piece of fats in front of my stomach starting to grow! It's a good time to start cutting down my calorie intake for every meal haha. Go back to January/February times this year when I ate a lot less after being scared into doing so after my terrible France experience of eating till I'm sick. I suppose the frequent biking helps to keep my legs toned too. But I don't want a fat stomach, so I'll still cut down on the amount I eat for every meal ^^

Alright, time to watch some anime and relax for the day!

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Tuesday, September 11, 2018 @ 4:55 AM
Musings; the importance of memories
Hello dear blog :) I am feeling very happy right now because I cooked rice and steamed minced pork and cabbage+eggs for lunch, and I ate 1/4 plus 1/12 of the mini mooncake I bought from the Hong Kong bakery in San Francisco two days ago. It was good :) It is good, haha, tastes exactly like the mooncakes back home, and perhaps can be on par with the better mooncakes back home HAHA. I savoured it slowly with my earl grey tea from Trader Joe's, so I'm a happy girl now!

It's 1.37pm in the afternoon and I didn't go to lab today ahaha. Firstly because Kelly is not going to be there anyway, and secondly because I don't think I'll gain much from going there. I still need to read papers and do my literature review, so yep. Managed to read some papers in the morning! And now I think I have a rough idea of what I would like to do for my official FYP, so I'm less frantic and directionless now haha.

I suppose the rest yesterday helped! The rest over the weekend too. I have so much food now, hehe, don't think I'll be able to finish them LOL. Will probably bring the Milano cookies to lab to get the rest of the lab members to polish it off HAHA. Yep, there's still a lot of cookies left that I don't really fancy eating so x) The Cheetos puffs were really great though! I didn't expect each puff to be so big! Haha! But it's nice, and pretty cheap too, so I think I'll buy it again in the future :) I still have half a bag left, but it's a good snack! Not as terribly sinful as Super Rings HAHA the colouring is not so intense. Woohoo. The Ritz cheese snack packs are another story though x-x So salty omg, both the cheese dipping sauce and the biscuits... Don't think I'll eat a lot of it as well, and I probably won't buy it again -sheepish-. Probably should have spent my money on the cheese sandwich crackers instead, but then it was such a huge packet (12 individual 3-sandwich packets!) that I was a little afraid to buy it too x-x Moderation is my guiding motto HAHA, I don't care if I can get more with just $2 more or something, the value doesn't really appeal to me. I'd rather be able to try a variety of different things instead xD

Man, haven't opened that cheese tortellini pack from Trader Joe's yet! I wonder what it tastes like? I'll have to finish up my beef bolognese ravioli and pesto tortellini first though, and that will be another two meals already HAHA. Guess my fridge is really very well-stocked with food :P Can't help it, especially not when Safeway is just across the street and I like to walk through supermarkets to buy things. Perhaps I should have bought that dried shelf-stable cheese tortellini instead, but well, there's always next time xD I still have 6 months to go! Plenty of time left to try other things ahaha.

But of course, I'm also very glad that I can cook dishes from back home, like broccoli + carrots, ABC soup, other soups, etc. That means that I won't really get homesick for Chinese food HAHA. Because I am free to cook it! Woohoo. That's one good thing about living in a place long-term vs just being in a hostel I guess. You get to buy more stuff and stock up the fridge for a longer time. Suddenly reminded of our family's Australia adventure haha, when we stayed in that nice house on Phillip Island and had that super nice home-cooked dinner together. And also when we cooked during those days spent in the hostel haha. It was nice! And when we cooked during the Great Ocean Road night too. Man, if I don't think hard about it, I think I might forget all these memories haha. It's pretty important to record these things down... I think a memory device will be good, so that we can go back and review certain moments if we want to. But of course there'll be that whole host of other considerations as well like people losing themselves in their memories instead of the present, Black Mirror-like stuff happening, etc... But well, I think memories are a really important part of who we are, and I do get lost in my diaries sometimes as well. Still, it doesn't mean that I've forgotten the present haha. It only serves to motivate me more for the present, once I return from the past...

It's never really the device's fault; it's more of how the people use the device.

Well. That was a good post :) I enjoyed writing it. It's time for me to get on with the other activities I've planned for the day. Shall we?

See you!

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Sunday, September 9, 2018 @ 12:16 PM
Daily thoughts
Wow, what a day I spent today, dear blog! I went to San Francisco for the first time (Caltrain tickets are really expensive, btw) and had a good time walking around the city and filling my tummy. Bought a cafe latte from Blue Bottle (oat milk) first, and it was really good! The amount of coffee in there might be a tad too much for my tummy though, I got a tummy ache after drinking it x-x But coffee goes great with oat milk! I never knew that! Hehehe! Although I'm pretty sure that the calories in that one cup is definitely more than that in a soy latte HAHA.

After my tummy ache, I went to walk down Chinatown... And found a couple of Hong Kong bakeries that sold mooncakes! The first one had the 白糖糕 too, my favourite kueh! x3 Of course I had to buy one to eat haha, it was USD 1. The taste was pretty different from SG's 白糖糕, in the sense that it was a lot more sour. The vinegarish taste was more apparent. But my tummy felt better after eating it cuz I guess it's something light, not oily and all hehe. Then I continued on my way!

Found the other hong kong bakery, the super-famous one, and identified it by the long queue forming outside it LOL. Apparently it is super famous for its egg tarts but the owners can randomly go on vacation and not open the store (the store times shown on google maps are never updated accurately) so I was really lucky to have caught it when it was open xD Queued for quite a while, then bought an egg tart. MANNN THE EGG TART WAS SO GOOD! Damn it!!! HAHA. It's like, one of the best - if not the best - egg tarts I've ever eaten! Portuguese egg tarts xD Such a creamy and smooth and nice custard fillingggggg with a thin crust layer that was crispy and fresh and hot. GOD. DAMN NICE. If anyone were to ask me for a recommendation in San Francisco I would definitely get them to buy that egg tart HAHA.

Then I went to Fisherman's Wharf! Went to The Codmother Fish and Chips and had a junior fish and chips (which was still incredibly large LOL I couldn't finish all the fries). Not bad :) Burned the roof of my mouth behind my front teeth though because all the food was so hot and I just ignored it and bit into them LOL. But well. Hehe. Then continued on my way and went to walk around Pier 39. Didn't buy anything from there though, because I was already so full from all the food I ate xD Although I wanted to get some ice cream at first. But well, there's always the USD 3.99 Haagen Daz or other ice cream brands from Safeway HAHAHA I might as well get those! xD

Yeah, then decided to Uber back to the San Francisco caltrain station because I was already so tired from walking so long D: they really need to up their public transport game man. It's badddd. Anyway it takes around 1 hour and 15 minutes for the train to get from California Avenue to San Francisco. Pretty long; it's like me going to Pasir Ris haha. And the tickets are expensive (USD 16.50 to go to and fro!) so I probably won't go there so often. :)

Okay, see you!

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Saturday, September 8, 2018 @ 5:15 AM
Hey my dear, can't believe it's been almost three weeks since I was here! In France/Italy LIP terms, it'd mean that the entire trip is going to be over soon, but here, it's barely started and I'm still trying to settle in to this new environment haha. I guess things are really different indeed when you are here for the long term vs for the short run. Housing becomes a pretty big deal, haha.

Anyway, my stomach is telling me that it's hungry at the moment but I'm not sure if it really knows what it wants? I'm probably going to grab some ramen from the cafeteria for lunch later, but I gotta meet Anping at 3pm to discuss her project so hm. At least I still have 50 minutes I guess.

Today has been a good day so far, and lab life seems to be getting better. I'm talking more to Kelly, Laurent and the rest of our lab mates, and it almost feels like I have friends here now, and a good social circle. I feel healthier mentally too (although physically it is contentious HAHAHA ingesting so much calories and junk food everyday D:). Hopefully things will only get better from now on!

I do enjoy the free schedule that I have here, and it's great that I'm starting to adapt enough to incorporate leisurely activities into my schedule now. For instance, the upcoming football match that I'll be going to see with Chu Qing Hao LOL, and then Laurent talked about bringing me to San Francisco's outlet stores sometime, and Kelly talked about heading to San Francisco to eat some Singaporean food together sometimes. It's good, yeah :) Things are starting to get better! And they are all so friendly. I enjoyed the talk about cultural exchange just now, think it is a pretty important part of being overseas. And it's been three weeks HAHA, only now can I think about things like this LOL.

Well. I think my stomach is really calling out to me. I should feed it with some ramen or some bananas, at least. Let me go google good ramen places in palo alto.

Okay gonna go and grab something from the cafeteria now. See you :)

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Tuesday, September 4, 2018 @ 9:16 AM
Sometimes you get distracted by your feelings and then you do things that are not really in line with what you want to achieve for the long term.

But sometimes you get distracted by your feelings and amazing new inspirations are born from there.

So don't take it too hard on yourself to always know the exact thing that you want to do.

Life moves on, like a trickle of water seeking its way around the pebbles to finally form a river.

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